So it has been one week and I have done so so. For the most part I have eaten well, exercised and cheated. Yes, I have eaten some pasta, buttered pop corn at the movies, and some sugar.
While I'm not as happy with myself as I want to be I'm going to be kind to myself. Tomorrow is another day and I will press forward with my journey. (I am down 2 pounds though).
As for my life I am learning much, actually more then I really want to though I know these are lessons I need to learn so that I will be the person I am hoping to become through this journey. I like my life to have order, (everything in it's place, always have a plan and a back up, goals written, dream big, hope for luck, work hard, everything nice, everything pretty), you know life in a nice little package.
What I am learning big time is that I really have no control outside of my reaction to the world around me. I can be frustrated that things aren't happening as I want them to or I can accept that I only have control over me, my thoughts and my actions. I can go through life in fear, frustrated, disappointed, always waiting for.........before I'll be happy, at peace, settled, can do....there are many many things that can get in my way of enjoying life minute by minute, day by day. But heck, I believe we are on this earth to have joy, experience many things, learn many things, share many things, help each other, dance and laugh.
Life happens and sometimes not the way I want it to which is why they call it life.... so along with losing those 30 lbs, whoops, (28lbs) I am on a journey to enjoy each day, to be happy, to stop being fearful of the economy, the gloom and doom I hear about everyday, the uncertainty I have been feeling for months now.
Heck I have a loving husband, wonderful family, great friends, a roof over my head, plenty to eat, my health, a job I love, my faith, the knowledge that Heavenly Father is aware of everything and that with him I can do anything, endure anything and just plain be thankful and happy. So that's my plan!
About Me
- Deborah Bergman Holien
- I'm a regular spirit having a very human experience. I am where I am today because of choices I made and make on a daily bases. I know I am a daughter of my Heavenly Father and try each day to remember that. My hope is that everyone that comes in contact with me will see his light in me though I know I fall short too many times. I am a loyal mother, daughter, wife, employee and friend. I love adventure with a safety net and am always ready to try new things. My ultimate hope is that when I leave this earth it will be said that the little part of the world I occupied is better off because I was there and that when I get home I will hear, (job well done).
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